Kacie LaRae

The sometimes awkward yet highly necessary part of developing or halting a relationship... I seem to be having quite a few of these lately.

Here at the Y-Idaho I guess i should've known that the guys are hardwired for finding their eternal companion. I mean i knew, but never experienced personally this rather blantant reality here on campus. Let's just say there has been A LOT of drama in my life right now.
The boy at work, good friends wanting to get closer, a few regulars in my check out line, the kid in art class, FHE brother, yah... It's insane and it's blowing my mind! My only explaination is that it's summertime and everyone's looking for a relationship to add to the bliss of the season. Ugh.

Having never actually dated someone, the whole situation can sometimes be daunting. Thus far in life, there have only been a handful of gentlemen that i wouldn't mind dating, but nothing ever came of it. Now, literally within like 3 days, it seems every single young man i know has made some sort of suggestion or even blatently asked me if i was interested in a relationship. What am i supposed to do! I can't say yes to all of them! That's just stupid. Fortunately for me, most of them are just good friends and that's all i've seen them as. And thus for me, I'm getting pretty good at the whole DTR thing.

I feel so bad for my one friend. Sure enough, i come to find out that since the second week of school he had started liking me. We work together and thus spend 4 hours everyday M-F seeing each other. I never notice till last week and now it's just awkward. He's one of those friends who you really like, just not in that way. I've had to explain this to him and feel terrible because he's not the kind of guy that goes around liking girls. He's explained to me that when he likes a girl, he REALLY likes a girl. Sorry bud! I just don't recipricate those feelings!

I'm really sorry for all you readers who are reading this rather open post, but hey, this is sort of my journal and i'm entitled to some sort of record. That way, 20 years from now, i can read back and get a huge laugh over such college drama. And hopefully grab my husband and let him see just how lucky he is to be the keeper of my heart! :)