Here's what I've been thinking about:
1) I've found out that i am a mere 7 classes (21 credits) away from graduating. Whoot, whoot! How does that play into my serving a full time mission? Birthday's in March and honestly, I'm not fully ready to end my college experience here at BYU-I. Should i save my last two semesters till after i return from serving a full time mission?
2) Is a mission for me? I've always had a the desire to serve, but i really want to know for sure if this is what the Lord has in store for me?
3) Whatever the Lord has planned for me, i know I'll need to do my graduate studies. Where do i do it and in what program do i apply for?! I'm going for counseling right now, but i honestly don't know if that's what i actually want to do in life. HELP!
Anyways, I've been talking with friends up here, talking with my mom and dad, and seeking guidance through prayer. Tonight, it finally started to click... and i am excited!
After all that worrying, this is what i have (granted, it very well might change, but i feel really good about it at this time):
Graduate! I'm going to apply for Fast Grad, which will allow me to take course through my off-track until I graduate in July 2011. Allowing me to graduate a semester earlier than expected and move onto my next step. (Remember how i felt strongly about staying for my off track in 09? and had no idea why? Well, i believe this has something do to with it; had i not, my timing would have been all off. Oh, and that also was the semester i took my first psych classes and what do ya know... look where i am today. The Lord knows what He's doing.)
Mission! I'm going to serve a mission! I just have this burning desire to serve. I've always wanted it, I've always dreamed about it, and i feel like the Lord is preparing me to serve. I am going to serve a mission! Just remembering how i watched my brother's open their mission calls, Oooo... i just get shivers thinking about my turn. I simply can not wait! Gosh dang it! I wanna go now.
Post Mission: Here's where it gets a little dicey. I know I'm going to do grad work. I've been thinking about BYU-Provo. Granted this part of the plan is still a few years off but in just my rough sketch, I'm feeling good about Provo... like really good. We'll see what actually happens, it's not like i have to decide this very moment. As to what program I'd be getting into, no idea. But my mom taught me and reminded me that it's ok that i don't know. The Lord is not going to leave me hanging,especially when i am willing to give up my time to serve Him. So long as i continue to do my part the best that i know how... He is going to lead me to where i need to be. I just have to have the patience and faith that I will be lead there all in good time. What a good mommy (and daddy!) i have that can speak the truths that i may already know, but have simply forgotten in the fear and doubt of the future. What would i do (or be) without them.
Thank you!
I love you
So that's the plan,
Maybe now i can get some sleep now that I've gotten that off my chest.
Night!
1 comment:
Sounds like a great plan. Some of these things are immediate, and certainly do need to be decided. Others, like grad school, can certainly be up in the air a bit. Your mom (of course), is so right. Have you heard this:
We must be willing to let go of the life we have planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us...
I like that thought a lot, though I might preface it by saying "sometimes." We do need to have a plan, but just remember not to let the plan dictate our lives with a voice louder than the Spirit. I know you won't.
Guess what? I had an "ideal plan" in mind in college, and it didn't include marrying Randy and certainly didn't include marrying him at the time that I did. But the new plan is better and more than I could have hoped for with my old "ideal" one.
You will be a great missionary and a stellar counselor/therapist, should you pursue that profession. I'm so proud of you for all you've accomplished so quickly in college!
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