I've reached the point in my life where i can really tell the difference between my growing up years and what lays beyond that; almost like a gate on the road.
For 18 years it's pretty predictable as to what will happen from day to day, or even year to year; school, work, friends, homework, family, church, callings, fun, etc.
I've walked a steady, progressive life, but there is this gate- the entrance to the rest of my life...
... on to adulthood.
I'm excited. I'm thrilled! but wow- what happened to structure?
By structure i mean knowing where your going to be (for sure) in 5 years.
When your young, you know you will be going to grade school;
in grade school, you know that next comes junior high;
in junior high you have a thrill of getting older as you anxiously await high school....
in high school, comes the car keys, dating, and later curfew...
Wow, here comes senior year! You pick out a college, and wrap up your education, then get handed a high school diploma....
Then what?
I attend college and have the time of my life!
But then what?
I, serve a mission!
And?...
uh, get married?
What about a career?
Hmmm...
Do you even know what your going to major in?
Studio art?
Well, that's a start.
I have unlimited options as to what I'm going to do now. No longer is it, well, I'm going to be in my junior year in high school... it's well, I'm looking into taking these classes so i can major in this, so i can eventually get into this field, and maybe I'll jump into this area cuz that looks cool too, i really don't know exactly what I'm going to do but I'll pray about it. It'll be fine.
It's a cool, exciting time in my life! I get to choose my life and trust that my Heavenly Father is leading me in the right direction. There is many more unseen bumps and tumbles in the road now... it used to be that unexpected pop quiz or 500 point essay.
Maybe I'm just suffering post-high school unsureity :)
But an interesting perspective never the less.
I can see my growing up years and all it's fun glory, and i can see the vast empty pages of my future just waiting to be filled.
It can be just a little overwhelming. :)
Here i go!
1 comment:
I think it's great that you've recorded your perspective at this point. You have a fabulous open book in front of you with limitless possibilities. No need to close any doors at this point. I think it's great that you've recognized the unique nature of this point in your life. Enjoy it! With it comes an element of carefree enjoyment, an excitement about the possibilities, a belief that with heaven's help you can be and do anything!
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